Feeling Blue

Well today has brought many feelings up and stirring.... this battle has caused me to stay in Cuero for the 4th of JULY which i havent done since my divorce 3 years ago.... I think i am a creature of habit... i dont like change much not even if it is for the better!!!!!! So my thoughts are of 4th of July where we would decorate the kids bikes and have this neighborhood parade lead by the VFW. Just walking the neighborhood and playing patriotic music.... then we would have refreshments in the neighbors back yard followed by a nap and then off to the park to the grassy knoll to watch the fireworks. Again kelly would tumble on the ground and Kam would play frisbee. AHHHH those where the good ole days!!!! Oh and i would require my kids to wear these goofy flag headbands.... So we are here and there is no neighborhood parade to go to... I will still make them wear head gear but this year it will be bandannas and matching shirts!!!! Last year i didnt want 4th of July pics of them with me in them because of the breast cancer but this year yes i think we will do a 4th pic of the 3 of us. We may look back years from now and think wow how did we do that!!! So I am hoping my family will come in and make some memories with us!!!! It would have been nice if my neighbors would have been home too!!!! So we will see how i manage to pull through this weekend!!!! HOPE EVERYONE ENJOYS THEIR 4TH!!!!! Remember those that have served and are serving!!!!! If its your brother, husband, or son.... Thank you!!!!